“nut up or shut up”

Sorry…I love that phrase and don’t believe I have ever had the opportunity to use it.

But it is quite fitting of my writing life these past 3 weeks.  This is the first period in my writing-life where I am actually putting off the writing of something and making excuses for myself in doing so.  The truth of the matter is that the project I’ve mentioned a few times…the non-horror and rather personal novel…is making me nervous.

I’m enjoying the process of writing it, but I think I am realizing that I’ve never put quote this amount of thought and personal demons/motivations into a story.  As a result of shying away from continual progress on this, my other writing is suffering as well.

While on vacation, I had planned to write at least 1,500 words every night…if not more. (Hey, sometimes when the words come, you can’t stop them).  But I didn’t even manage 1,500 words over the course of the entire week.

I am planning on using today’s lunch break as the tipping point.  I am going to write a bit on this novel even if I don’t feel like it.  In terms of this project, it is indeed time to nut up or shut up.  60 pages in and I already know the skeleton of the story and am closely tied to the primary characters.  It is looking to be a rather long and uncomfortable book (as a writer and, hopefully, for the readers).

It’s been occupying my head for the past three weeks.  It wants to be written. This is simply one of those cases where I have distanced myself from it for a bit because I think, deep down, I believe it has the potential to be the best writing I have ever done…and it’s not horror.  And that terrifies me.

Ironic, yes?

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One comment

  1. I don’t have the equipment to “nut up.” 🙂

    I think it’s tough, and brave, to try something new. There are places I don’t want to go when I write, and this is probably cowardly on my part.

    So, I hope you managed to get back on track, but you should probably also give yourself some credit for wanting to go there in the first place.

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